I’ve always been the type of person who doesn’t believe in words. Actions are all that matter in my book — and because of this, I have never been able to write down how I feel about Emerson. I’ve never been able to find the right words that measure up or feel like they mean a thing.
I never wrote in her baby book on the page that says “a letter to you before we met you”. I also never wrote one after you arrived, even though I promised myself I would. Trust me, I tried many times. But still, nothing quite makes sense or translates correctly to paper. One cannot describe how a mama feels for her tiny babe.
Instead, I promise you I will always show you.
Instead, I’ve come up with this.
I promise to:
Always respect you.
Respect your boundaries. Respect your decisions.
Always acknowledge your strengths.
Show you I am proud. Believe in you.
Trust your judgment. Believe you. Never invade your privacy.
Listen to you.
Teach you your value.
To stand up for yourself. For others. For animals. For what you love.
And when it is time to walk away.
I will allow you to embrace your intuition.
This is something I rely heavily upon. And while I thought most others did, too, the older I get, the less I realize this is true. It’s unnatural for us to ignore our feelings and yet we are taught to push those feelings aside. I hope to show you how to embrace this side of yourself.
Trust yourself, as much as I trust you.
Let you explore.
I will show you health. In food, relationships, emotions. In all aspects of life.
I will not get stuck in a battle with you. I will not drag out an argument. I will apologize.
I promise to guide you and love you.
As you are. As your own person. Whoever that may one day be.
I know there are many more promises I will make you and wish I could put down into words, but as we discussed earlier… the whole word thing is lost on me.
What have you promised your children? I’d love to hear in the comments below.
Xoxo, Mama Kay